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Last night was one of the most crazy experiences I've ever had on a spiritual level. If you do not believe in Spiritualism or are about to go into a pro-science rant please bugger off. I am in no mood for it, I have found out so much stuff about myself spiritually in the past two days and my head is swimming.
Any little signs I had before have turned into big great wacks in the face, energy that was a light buzz now takes over my whole body and I can feel other peoples emotions whom I'm connected to spiritually. Make sense? Probably not. Here's an example to display it to you clearly. My house, a lot of feeling that something is there has now turned into corner of the eye stuff and something stroking my hair as I fell asleep last night. I was on the phone to somebody I hold dear to me with whom I share a great spiritual connection and as I was laying there I realised I was feeling feelings that weren't mine. The scariest part was when he got scared by something and my blood ran cold, I was petrified my breathing changed and I was terrified too. It was horrible because I was sat in my light bright room surrounded by crystals and a soft energy YET I could feel what was going on in his room. It's nice feeling others emotions when they're elated but the bad feelings are grim. Ok so half of you are probably like 'damn, she knows' and the other half are probably on the phone to the men with white jackets.
So Oracle cards. I'm fed up of explaining that Oracle cards are NOT Tarot cards. Here is a brief description of the difference: http://kaerwynskorner.blogspot.co.uk/2010/01/tarot-cards-oracle-cards.html
So I have 5 decks of cards. I only use one. The others just don't feel right and this particular deck just makes me feel great. It is important that you sort of connect with your deck. Usually when I use these cards I get feelings and tingles etc to guide me through my readings like a light dusting of energy. Last night I was reading for someone and instead of gentle energy I was being almost beaten up by it. Instead of the usual feeling to stop I was getting electric jolts up my spine, my tummy felt all tingly and I could almost feel bright gold light shining round me. I felt so much good energy it was a bit cray cray (lol) I actually felt euphoric as I was giving the reading, like I was a higher entity looking down flooding the room with light. Ok I must sound either crazy or high to non-believers . The answers coming were incredible, in chronological order as though telling a story and the cards decided to show me up and reveal some of my very personal thoughts and feelings about that person. The Definitely Yes card kept flying out the pack along with Love and Trust in your own Feelings. These cards rarely come out when I do readings normally. It was mental, I can't even describe it. I felt like I was floating on a Tempur mattress on the sea or something.
This Spiritualism/awakening lark is terrifying me. I jump every time I hear a noise or see something.
Even though I'm all spiritually awakening etc now, it doesn't stop me being in a bad mood lol. I'm furious because the bar I go to has just changed it's policy to 21's and overs!!!!!!!!!! BASTARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE THE HELL am I supposed to play beer pong/drunk Olympics dress up as super mario/hang out with Crawley Town footballers now?!
I'm fed up of asking and trying and asking again just to either have it ignored or swept under the carpet or given another empty promise. I don't know many times I have to explain it it just doesn't seem to be sinking in, then I get had a go at for giving up. It's just messing with my head? Like wtf?! I don't know what's wrong with me or what I'm quite obviously doing wrong? I ask and then get fobbed off with a half arsed explanation. It's starting to properly hurt my feelings.
Anyway just a quick one, I needed to write!
Bathtime :)
Nimmy xxx
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